Thursday, December 2, 2010
please
i know i wasnt the best daughter ever, i know that i have my faults...but please...just once...tell me u are proud of me. i have worked really hard to get to where i am at today and i just want acknowledgement. i want acceptance. i want to be part of the family.
Sunday, October 31, 2010
Chillin on the couch
I am so amazed at how my life has changed in the past year. Thanksgiving marks my one year anniversary with my loving boyfriend Andrew and life couldn't get any better. I am anxiously waiting to hear if I am going to get the promotion I applied for last week, it wouldn't be the end of the world if i didn't get it, but everyone is pretty confident that I will. I am just trying not to get my hopes up or get to cocky about it. I am just incredibly inpatient and it seems like the whole process is taking forever.
On other news, the hernia I got from my surgery in July is driving me nuts. I am embarrassed to go out in public because people keep asking or assuming if I am pregnant. I really wish I had more vacation time so I can get it fixed. January first can not come fast enough. And I swear on my life that if this is not the last surgery, I am going to go nuts. I just can't catch a break! But hey, it could be worse right? atleast I have managed to stay in remission through all the surgeries AND keep my job.
On other news, the hernia I got from my surgery in July is driving me nuts. I am embarrassed to go out in public because people keep asking or assuming if I am pregnant. I really wish I had more vacation time so I can get it fixed. January first can not come fast enough. And I swear on my life that if this is not the last surgery, I am going to go nuts. I just can't catch a break! But hey, it could be worse right? atleast I have managed to stay in remission through all the surgeries AND keep my job.
Wednesday, October 27, 2010
So its been a long time...
To be completly honest, I had forgotten about my account here. Logging in and looking back really makes me appreciate myself for everything I have been through in the past few years...so i guess...update? (don't really have followers anymore, so I guess this is for me)
So I moved back in with my parents after loosing everything. Got back my dead end job that I had tried so desperatly hard to escape and was hospitalized again. For nine days. Without health insurance. yea. that sucked. but after that my whole life was about to change for the best even though I didn't know it yet.
Me and my best friend decided to take a roadtrip to texas to visit my biological mom. long story short on the way home I had decided that I had had enough with illinois. 2 weeks later my car was packed and well, here I am now.
It didn't take me long to get a job, seven days to be exact. I loved my job more than anything in the world. But then once again my world was turned upside down. To make that long story short. Crohns got bad and he had a sidekick! I also had a rare blood disorder that was causing me excruciating pain. I had been lucky enough to find an AMAZING doctor and things got better again. Much better. My last flare up was in the beginning of October 2009. Here I am now. over a year later. Living a normal life for the first time since my senior year in highshool.
Now I am so deeply in love that words can't describe, I have a really good, stable job, and for the first time in my life, HAPPY.
so I guess i was right in my earlier blogs. I just needed a change. A fresh start.
So I moved back in with my parents after loosing everything. Got back my dead end job that I had tried so desperatly hard to escape and was hospitalized again. For nine days. Without health insurance. yea. that sucked. but after that my whole life was about to change for the best even though I didn't know it yet.
Me and my best friend decided to take a roadtrip to texas to visit my biological mom. long story short on the way home I had decided that I had had enough with illinois. 2 weeks later my car was packed and well, here I am now.
It didn't take me long to get a job, seven days to be exact. I loved my job more than anything in the world. But then once again my world was turned upside down. To make that long story short. Crohns got bad and he had a sidekick! I also had a rare blood disorder that was causing me excruciating pain. I had been lucky enough to find an AMAZING doctor and things got better again. Much better. My last flare up was in the beginning of October 2009. Here I am now. over a year later. Living a normal life for the first time since my senior year in highshool.
Now I am so deeply in love that words can't describe, I have a really good, stable job, and for the first time in my life, HAPPY.
so I guess i was right in my earlier blogs. I just needed a change. A fresh start.
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